It's time to GET REAL!

Seriously.

 

I have spent most of my adult life being overweight. 

And most of that time being (oh I hate this word) Obese.

 

A few years ago I worked my fanny off and with the help of LA Weightloss I lost a hundred lbs.  WAHOO!  I did it over a year and a half.  Slowly and sensibly. 

 It was one of the hardest things that I have done. 

There were many tears in my room when my family was eating brownies.  I made a seperate meal for myself every night.

It was awesome to feel good about myself.  I made it to my 1st goal weight and then lowered it.  I came within 8 lbs of that.  I was ok with that.  I was back to my highschool weight and

I felt good.

 

I kept it off for a few years.

Then it started creeping back. 

Slowly at first. 

 Ever so slowly

Then before I know it I am up 25 lbs and trying a crash diet.  It worked.  For a short time. Like most crash diets.

I continued working out most of the time.  Then that stopped.

I still managed to keep it in that 25ish lb range for quite a while. 

I joined a weightloss challenge.

Failed.

A year later I went to a personal trainer.  I really love to work out, (once I get there) and I liked it a lot.  She put me on a really strict diet and I did well.  Then the food got really really old and she started being more concerned about herself during my training time than me. I was paying her good money and I could only afford it once a week so I really needed it to count.  At month 4 I cancelled my appt. with her and she never even called me back to reschedule.  Guess she didn't care too much.  That was last April.  Since then I have gained another 20ish lbs.  That is A LOT in that amount of time.  How did that happen?

Oh yeah, it was the eating whatever I wanted syndrome.  The same one I used to have most of my life.

I guess this is where the 'get real' part comes in.  Most normal adult women, no matter how thin they are, can't eat the way I was and be thin. Why do I think I can?  I'm not really sure. 

I think I am being a spoiled brat and want what I want

Enough of that, it is time to get back to a healthy lifestyle and using what I learned at LA Weightloss and through out the years to do it.  You know, silly things like eating veggies, (and not ones covered in butter:) fruits, proteins, portion control, etc.  I'm much better if I have someone to be accountable to so that worries me a little but I am determined so hopefully that will make up for it.

I know it is almost the holidays and I considered waiting till they were over.  That is the spoiled brat in me.  I decided enough.  So far I am on day 2.  Guess I can't really count that as success yet but you do have to start somewhere.  I have a goal of 10 lbs by thanksgiving which is 2 weeks away.  I think for a jumpstart that is do-able.  I know I can't maintain that rate of loss but the beginning is always quicker.  I need to get on my treadmill to help move things along but I refuse to beat myself up over it if I don't make it there this week.
Kenz and I did the Color Run last week.  It was a 5k and a lot of fun.  I was hoping it would get me motivated.  We even ran (and by run, I mean jog slowly) about 3/4 of it.  I did better than I thought.  Haven't been on the treadmill since.
I guess tomorrow is a new day and I also know I can exercise till "the cows come home" and if I don't control what goes into my mouth it won't do any good.

Baby steps.

Slow and steady.

 

That's all